Friday, October 10, 2008

Addictive Personalities

I have an addictive personality. Duh! It took me years to realize that I could not drink alcohol, period! People can be addicted to numerous things, food, sex, porn, drugs, gambling, CHURCH, you name it. The list can go on and on.

I had to admit that I had a problem and I did. I can still remember the day very well. It was Sept 28th 2000. I was healed that day. Haven't touched it since. I have been in prayer about my tobacco use and I believe that God is going to heal me from that addiction as well. I was addicted to Church. Or better stated, addicted to following a leader. Now leaders are good or bad. Don't get me wrong here. But when you don't go with the program they want you to go with and you step aside, and then they refuse to meet with you, that is abuse...plain and simple.

When there is a sin issue, I have no problem with authority. If there is no sin involved, then you have freedom in Christ. I have spoken with many folks whom I respect and I am very comfortable with the decisions I have made. But what makes me the most comfortable, is knowing that I am doing what God wants me to do. That is what counts.

I have helped many people that struggle with addiction. I am working with a few even right now, and thus far, these folks are doing well. I have worked with a couple who have died, literally. They couldn't stop drinking or doing their drug of choice and that took their life. It could have taken mine too.

There are some who I have walked away from because they did not want my help and could not stop. I remember a kid that was a crystal meth addict that I allowed to stay in my house, as long as he held a job and did not use drugs. It lasted three days. It was HIS choice, not mine. I gave him the requirements and he knew the consequences.

To this day, I do not know where he is or if he is even alive. Now I was told once by somebody that what this person is doing to me, is exactly what I did to this kid. How is that even possible?
Because I did not do what this person told me to do? Maybe there are some leaders that are addicted to authority or power. Maybe they should confess their sin as it says in James. "Confess your sins that you may be healed". I thank God I am healed!

There may be more coming on this, we'll see. Until then, be encouraging to somebody.



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